Hey guys! It's been almost two months, but everybody knows the holidays are crazy busy! Today was my first day back at school, so I figured it was a good time for a new post about the new year (and new worries).
After New Year's, I sort of had a mental crisis. I started thinking about the next twelve months and what's in store for me. Just starting this year (the past week or so), I've been having some super odd dreams. I've dreamed that my teeth are falling out and that I've missed multiple airplane flights. A quick Google search told me that these dreams suggest that I'm struggling with anxiety related to a transition in my life and that I'm nervous about missed opportunities. These assumptions are actually pretty accurate for me, if you believe in that kind of stuff.
With that being said, 2015 is going to be a huge transition year, and that comes with tons of new emotions. This year is the culmination of everything I've been working on for my entire life. Sounds dramatic, but it's true. This is the year I will take the MCAT. This is the year I will apply to medical school. I'm seriously considering joining the United States Navy, and this is the year I'll apply for their amazing scholarship program. (There, I said it. It's out.) This is the year I will make decisions that will honestly affect the rest of my life.
I've been working for what seems like my entire life thus far for the things I will do this year. I've slaved for years, trying to get straight A's, be involved in as much as I can in school, and do as much service as possible in between. I've dreamed of the day I will take the MCAT, and just thinking about it, my stomach is starting to hurt (we're less than 5 months away, people). I've dreamed of being a doctor since before I can even remember, and this year, I will finally know if that dream will come true. The transitions that I'm going to experience this year are scary, and I'm always afraid that amid all the stress and worry, I'm going to miss out on living my life. I'll start my senior year of college in the fall, then after that, it's off to the real world. And that's scary! Although, in a weird way, I find comfort in the uncertainty. I know what is under my control (my MCAT scores, my applications, etc.), but it's actually kind of nice knowing that when I make these transitions to the real world, what happens happens, and that's what I'm meant to do. If I get an interesting opportunity to take a trip or move across the country, I might just do it. Because I can. If I don't get into medical school, I'll either try again next year, or find a different route for my life. These changes are scary, but I find solace in the fact that no matter what happens, I'll end up where I'm supposed to be someday, as long as I work hard and take care of what I can. I hope I remember this year, with all of its trials and trying times, as one of happiness and success, not as one of pain and disappointment. The only thing I can do now is keep doing what I'm doing, and everything will work out in the end.
Sincerely,
T
After New Year's, I sort of had a mental crisis. I started thinking about the next twelve months and what's in store for me. Just starting this year (the past week or so), I've been having some super odd dreams. I've dreamed that my teeth are falling out and that I've missed multiple airplane flights. A quick Google search told me that these dreams suggest that I'm struggling with anxiety related to a transition in my life and that I'm nervous about missed opportunities. These assumptions are actually pretty accurate for me, if you believe in that kind of stuff.
With that being said, 2015 is going to be a huge transition year, and that comes with tons of new emotions. This year is the culmination of everything I've been working on for my entire life. Sounds dramatic, but it's true. This is the year I will take the MCAT. This is the year I will apply to medical school. I'm seriously considering joining the United States Navy, and this is the year I'll apply for their amazing scholarship program. (There, I said it. It's out.) This is the year I will make decisions that will honestly affect the rest of my life.
I've been working for what seems like my entire life thus far for the things I will do this year. I've slaved for years, trying to get straight A's, be involved in as much as I can in school, and do as much service as possible in between. I've dreamed of the day I will take the MCAT, and just thinking about it, my stomach is starting to hurt (we're less than 5 months away, people). I've dreamed of being a doctor since before I can even remember, and this year, I will finally know if that dream will come true. The transitions that I'm going to experience this year are scary, and I'm always afraid that amid all the stress and worry, I'm going to miss out on living my life. I'll start my senior year of college in the fall, then after that, it's off to the real world. And that's scary! Although, in a weird way, I find comfort in the uncertainty. I know what is under my control (my MCAT scores, my applications, etc.), but it's actually kind of nice knowing that when I make these transitions to the real world, what happens happens, and that's what I'm meant to do. If I get an interesting opportunity to take a trip or move across the country, I might just do it. Because I can. If I don't get into medical school, I'll either try again next year, or find a different route for my life. These changes are scary, but I find solace in the fact that no matter what happens, I'll end up where I'm supposed to be someday, as long as I work hard and take care of what I can. I hope I remember this year, with all of its trials and trying times, as one of happiness and success, not as one of pain and disappointment. The only thing I can do now is keep doing what I'm doing, and everything will work out in the end.
Sincerely,
T